Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Draining

My energy is draining every single day. Battery ain't getting fully charge (not enough sleep). I'm always back to my workplace within 12hours. It's not the problem of waking up early but the problem of not having rest.

I never had such problem back when I was still flying. Waking up at 4/5-ish was never a problem. With just one alarm, I will be awake. But now, I need at least 4/5 alarms and I still can't get myself up from the bed. This is really terrible.

I hardly get to do much activities if I'm working. Because work takes up the entire day so the only I could probably do is to have supper/ or a little drink.  I know how lifeless my life is. I was just sharing with my close girlfriend that is really not my kind of life. I haven't been traveling to anywhere for the year. Other than going to Malaysia for my company Dinner&Dance event. No matter how broke or how busy I am, I would leave the country for some break. :(

Yes, I did managed to get 5days straight off from work next month for a well-deserved break. I'm looking forward and at the same time, not so looking forward to it. Not going to say why is this so. Turning 23 in just less than a month time. How much have I achieve? Not much. No car, No house, No money... HAHA! I need to get myself organized and get thing done. Not any young to slack around and enjoy much life.

Alright, thats all for now. Going to turn in for the night. CIAO!

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Hello Mr Lenovo

I'm so glad to be able to start blogging again, typing down every moment of life. And someday, I'm going to be reading through and laughing at all the post i typed. I got myself a advance birthday gift today and that is a new laptop. I wanted one eversince my NEC kinda of die on me. And I'm thankful for my first laptop who faithfully accompanied me through my days in MDIS and all the way till this year. 7years is pretty long. <3

Now that I have got a laptop, I don't have to use my phone or ipad to type post. :)

Life has been like a roller coaster. Things weren't going well for me for the second half of the year. I was just steps away from breaking down. I'm hurt someone who love me so much yet I didn't really know how to understand his thinkings and his actions. I don't know if you will be reading this but I wanted to tell you that I didn't want to let go of you, or even our relationship. Yeah, I did gave a little hope in you, in our relationship. But you didn't do anything. You assumed that whatever you say or even do, wont save us. Things around me reminds me of you. Whenever I mention about us, I can't bring myself to say you as my ex.When something happened at home, you're the one who I wanted to go to but I can't. I felt so helpless, all I know was to cry. Life is really sucky. Now that I had learn to walk out of my past and move on with my future, I wish you are doing well.

Family relationship is crashing as well at home. I don't know how true it is about what I heard. I don't pretty much was to care. As long as you don't hurt her or anyone of us, then so be it. You are long dead to me. I'm pretty mean to whoever is reading this but if you are aware of the situations then you might not even think I'm mean. Shall not talk about my family anymore. It hurts me more whenever I think about it.

Work has not been that for me. I wonder will I even stay long in the current job. I know in a blink it has been my 9th month with this current company. I feel pathetic at times though I'm earning quite a decent salary. I'm entitled with benefits which I can't really use it. Like say MC, I'm sick yet I still have to ask permission to be on MC even I have been issued a MC for that day. In the past, I used to take MC like as if it is free but over here, my MC is so so so rare. I fall sick quite often but I drag myself to work still. Sigh, don't know what to do. Taking MC is so hard, what's more about annual leaves.  Life's shitty!

More updates soon and counting down to my yearly bangkok affair.


Monday, February 3, 2014

The year of Horse!

It's the season of collecting red packets and eating lots of the pineapple tarts. How's new year for you? Non - Chinese must whining about shops and malls are closed.

Well, I spent my Chinese New Year at home, clearing all my sleeping debt. Normally I don't really do visiting but this year is strictly no visiting for me. Not sure if you took notice about my post but I didn't mentioned that my grandma passed away almost a year ago. It still unbelievable for me that she is no longer around though. I remembered every year we will gather to force her take a picture and all. But now that's she gone, we no longer gather together as a family.

I'm thankful that boyfriend has been accompanying throughout this days. I kept myself at home,not willing to go out because I really don't know what to do. I'm not supposed to go anyone house because Chinese has a say that it will bring bad luck to the family so well... I don't want to cause anything to anyone. 

Part of me wants work to start soon but part of me is lazy to work. Oh well... forever fickleminded! anyway, I'm just here wishing everyone HAPPY HORSE YEAR! BLESSED CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE. ITS A TIME TO GATHER AND BOND TOGETHER!